It’s all started 20 years ago..
Once upon a time, there was a young, cheerful, & enthusiastic girl whose mind has been mentally tortured. Who the fuck in the world could torture a 4-year-old mind? A child whom the world think wont understand what’s life is.
Yes. She did not understand anything but one thing she knew - her dad made her mom cry almost every night - when they thought she & her sister were already asleep.
Almost every night she’ll wake up in the middle of the night bcs her mom will come to her, hug her & cry.. What do u think she did on that time? What would a child like her do?
She did nothing, of course..
She was scared, she was all blank, & literally have no fucking idea what to do, so she went back to sleep letting her mom cries her lungs out..
It lasted until she was 11 years old then her parents got divorced.
All the shoutings, all the broken glasses & plates & mugs, all the cries, all the nasty words & all the bad stories she had heard from the relatives of both sides abt her parents......
It was hard for her but everyone thought she was a cheerful & a bright girl. But little did they know, she has been losing the attention from the parents. She was brought up in a broken family... with a big age gap between her siblings... she was all alone.......
Bcs of that, she was always afraid & scared to speak up. She was always afraid & scared to defend herself. She was bullied by her friends at school. She was mocked bcs of her looks. She was taken advantage of.
She was molested by her own uncle, by a stranger. Heckkk she was nearly raped too! Not to forget, got beaten up by her so called love-of-her-life lol
She kept things inside, letting the anger & sadness & confusion build in herself that later on, controlling her life.......
But of course, there were bright times too. But she could barely remember about those stuffs.
But of course, there were bright times too. But she could barely remember about those stuffs.
Well, she remembers how her father taught her to read, to write, to cycle & manners. She remembers her mom has sacrificed many things for her.
She remembers during the dark times, there were few ppl who turned up & defended her.
She remembers...so well.
But, the past has taken control over her mind that she mostly focuses on the bad stuffs rather than the positive ones...
This is all how everything started.... the miserable life yet no one actually really knows about it...
But, the past has taken control over her mind that she mostly focuses on the bad stuffs rather than the positive ones...
This is all how everything started.... the miserable life yet no one actually really knows about it...
And now u know :)